These past few days had been my busiest. Talk about the Corona Impeachment Trial, forums here and there, new projects and events to cover.

However, what's taking most of my time is Square Off. The new season, new team members, new (and not to mention old) debaters, (and new Hogwarts-inspired robes, too!), everything is making me wish that I have more than 24 hours a day, to meet deadlines, to please the bosses and sleep a little. I won't mention fun anymore because working for this show is a helluva ride for me, I meet different people, I learn from them as well as their matches, and I'm actually developing myself in the process. One way is talking to people because I interact with all of the contenders, other one is writing. I have to write and produce a profile script of the debaters who will be competing. Others may find it tedious, but it's interesting enough for me, it's way too challenging though. Difficult and grueling enough, the anxious me wishes to skip this process. Perhaps because I am not that confident and maybe another reason is I want to prove myself to everyone as well. So, I squeeze and extract myself so hard, but the fear is still there, always there. The old scripts from last year's debate may tell me I evolved into something way better this time around, but I know I can do much more, and even though my motivated mind firmly pushes myself to the limits, my frightened heart holds back. 

Perhaps the biggest fear I must overcome.